A Love Letter to God

Lilly Scheibelhut
Apr 20, 2025
1 min read

Dear God,

Do you remember when I was little how I would sing to you in bed? I made up songs about how much I loved you, whispered them into the night. And you were always there, listening. I felt it as I feel you now. Around me. Through me. As me.

And my heart still sings, I love you so much.

I love you for putting, what seemed like, insurmountable obstacles in my path. The same ones I begged you to take away, but you believed in me. I love you for the joy in my heart, and the light in my eyes. For this beautiful, troubled world we get to live in.

I am perfect, not because I am without fault, but because I am not without you.

I am whole. I remember. I love you.

Humbly and happily,

Lilly

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